Just saw this after messing around in DOU. Didn't know him, but everyone has had nothing but the nicest things to say about him. Rest in peace, Benja.
Depression, suicidal thoughts, whatever you want to call it. That's a dark place to be. I've been there, and I'm sure a few other people have too, whether they'll say so or not. Just know that if you're feeling lonely, afraid, scared etc, you have a community online of people who care about you called Smogon University. Personally, if you are ever in a place like this, don't be afraid to PM me, a friend of yours, someone on staff, anyone. Just get to talking. Suicide is a long term solution to a short term problem and I pray I never have to hear about something like this again on Smogon.
You've clearly impacted many people, Benja. You will be greatly missed by all of them. Prayers for his loved ones through this tragic time.