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As much I rant in all places lots of other people do some weird shit to me as well. I can't really empathize you right now but just because you fucked up once doesn't mean you have no chance. I know you are slightly older but here is my motto: Life isn't about how many times you fall, it is about how many times you get up. I fucked up p hard in the beginning, remember? Everyone is given their chances to make up their mistakes. Cheer up.